frozen 9/3/24

what could be easier than this? safety security and everything i've ever needed at my fingertips. yet, still lonely? with all this love around me? 
i don't know how to justify this feeling that everything is falling apart. especially after a glimpse into something different. i've perfected my suffering. and made it a routine. 
but the final link in the cycle's chain is proving impossible to break. at least i'm only 23.